Monday, February 21, 2011


I was experimenting with one of those everything-in-your-pantry/leftover soups for dinner today. Yuck. Next time I will only put in foods that we already like, instead of foods we already like, plus one we had never tried before (pearled barley). We discovered that neither of us like barley, we burned some barley on the bottom of the pot (so the house stinks), and it ruined the huge pot of soup (at least a week's worth of leftovers). :(

I know it is a very small frustration comparatively, but who likes basically throwing away food? Bah, I hate it when experiments go awry.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011


I've been having a really hard time lately. Like I said before, I've been sick since a few days before school started, and never have figured out why. The walk-in clinic doc had me get some bloodwork done, but still no answers. I AM feeling better, in that I am actually eating real food again, and I only get dizzy every now and then. Also, I've had a horrible lump in my throat off and on (like nasty excessive mucus, and I know that was TMI :P).

What has been hard is the panic attacks. I've NEVER had a panic attack before in my life until I got sick. I've had 5 or 6 since a few days after I got sick (so, about a month ago, I think). What's more, they aren't short attacks. They last for several hours. I can feel them coming on as I get more and more panicked. They happen mostly at night, to the point where I don't want to go to bed or wind things down at night, because I'm afraid I'll have one. Thankfully, I have an appointment with a therapist from the anxiety clinic at my school, so hopefully that will help. I just don't know what to do about them, having no history to fall back on. :(